The panic attacks are subsiding, I'm feeling more like "me" again, and that feels good. I'm still waiting to find out about my synthroid dose. My doctor is suppose to be back today. I'm just kind of thinking about when to call. I don't want to be a bitch, but really, this was suppose to be done last Wednesday.

I don't know if it's even worth calling this morning. They've only been open a half hour and I don't know how much he'd get done in that time. Plus I'm sure it's like every job when you are gone a week, you come back to a huge stack of crap. I just want my crap on the top of the pile!

I'm trying to figure out a nice way to call and say that. "Hey, could you DO your job that you didn't do last week and make sure Dr. H sees my lab work?" Some how I think that will get me to the bottom of the crap pile.

Physical therapy is going well, I guess. I'm expecting 6 months of this at least. It was cool last night when Dee gave me a new exercise to try and she told me how much fun I am to treat because I am willing to try any thing that she thinks of. She said "they told me at Dr.C how hard you'd work and what a great person you are, and that you have such a good attitude and sense of humor about all this. They were right."

That made me feel really good. Not just that Dee has said that, but that my surgeon's office feels so affectionately and positive about me. I do think it makes a difference too in how my whole treatment goes. I've been told before by my surgeon that he wished all his patients would put in effort like I do. Eleven years I've been putting in effort. I've gotten results too. It's been worth the work and it's worth the work I'm doing now.

If you don't try, it never happens ...

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