Dear God,

I know you've been on my side an awful lot this week, but could I beg out one more blessing?

Please let the lovely delightful man at Sparks understand and accept that the price needs to be a *little* bit lower on that dream car of mine. Please let him say "how about 10,500 out the door?" and me to say "hell yeah sparky!"

Sincerely and with love,
K

That being said, I hope the car hunting is done with soon. I hate it. It's so stressful but wonderful for my weight. Eat? No thanks, I'd rather just churn my stomach acid!

On the total opposite side of the subject world, I ran into my best friend from childhood almost 2 weeks ago. I gave her my email, she remembered it, and I got some mail from her this week. We've sent a few emails and it's been really fun remembering things.

I thought we'd be friends forever and in 7th grade my friends all went the boy crazy, party party party route and I didn't. I remember so clearly exactly when they ditched me.

So does she.

I got an email this morning telling me how very sorry she has felt all her life since then and how that is one of the biggest regrets in her life ...

Funny, I was so insecure because of my weight and my looks that I was so sure for years I'd done something wrong. She told me "I was such an insecure idiot that I went along with them" and she said she has regretted losing our friendship ever since. She said she's so happy that we are emailing now.

After a life time of thinking I had to have had something wrong with me ... I finally find out that it wasn't me. How wonderful to find out that someone regrets losing a friendship that was broken when we were 12.

This week sure has turned out blessed in the oddest way.

::If at any point you don't like my opinion::
::you don't have to share the same::
::Isn't the free world amazing that way?::
::Individuality rocks!::

::The people in my diary are just that, people.::
::If you think you are one of them,::
::then only admit it if you are one of the good ones!::
::If your are hurt and offended thinking you::
::are someone negatively mentioned in my diary,::
::stop doing what you are doing!::
::Perhaps you'll see me write nicer stuff about you!::
::If you think you know me and::
::are dying of curiousity, email me.::
::I won't promise to tell you,::
::but at least I'll know you're out there!!::